This is the beginning of my blog. I am still not sure how I want it to be or what I want to do with it. I know a lot of women use it to keep in touch with family and friends. I know a lot of people use it to vent in good and bad ways. I guess the reason I am starting it is because I've thought a lot about myslef lately and the impact I will leave in the world. I am a mom with five kids, and if for some reason a stranger reads this I am a Mormon, who loves being one. I love the Lord, I love my family and my church. I believe that my role as a wife and mother will have the most important impact on the world of anything I could achieve.

Having said that, I feel the need to create or do something outside my family that says I was here, I did something. I am not good at much of anything that is what I would call practical, and that is mostly my own fault. The reasons for it are not important, but it has been hard on my self esteem. I stink at most homemaking in general, I don't paint or draw, I can't fix or build anything. It would really get to me sometimes, but I don't let it devalue me, because the Lord revealed to me by the Spirit that I am of value no matter what my lack of skills or weaknesses are. I know he loves me, and what I become is up to me.

Anyway, one thing that I think I may be good at is expressing my thoughts. And I hope that they might be of use to some one, some day. A few people have told me that I have been helpful to them, when I have born testimony or shared a thought. I don't want to seem arrogant, or that I think I know more than most people. But maybe because my lack of pracitcal skills, I have been blessed to be able to express what the Lord teaches me.

This is all ready too long. Anyway, maybe i will share this with a lot of people or just myself I don't know. I don 't intend for it to be a catolog of my daily life. My 14 year old son was not impressed with my new endevour. He's not impressed with anything I do I think. Anyway, hopefully this is the first of many, or maybe it's the last!